I’m still struggling, both with life and running, but tonight was one of those outings that go some way to clearing out the debris that has accumulated over the past couple of weeks or so.
My running isn’t what I’d want it to be and I’ve had some quite dark moments privately yet I’ve never given up. There’s always something there, the merest flicker, that keeps me searching for a way to navigate around and past whatever gets in my way.
Often, I find, running and life are inextricably linked. When I’m running well I’m thinking well and vice versa.
As I said, I’ve been struggling so I needed something to begin the climb back out of the trough again so I decided last to enter the Virtual Belfast Marathon since, like everything else at the minute, the real thing has been postponed.
Because the marathon offers a relay element over five legs my intention is to run the 26.2 miles split into segments to match the relay, meaning tonight – leg one – run was 4.4 miles which, handily enough, would keep me more or less on track with my Loch Ness training plan. I know I’ve missed the odd run over the past week but it’s still good to get back on track.
I’ll be honest, tonight was going to be a ‘see how it goes’ type run. No pace in mind and no time to aim for, it was just a case of getting it done. I followed the same route as the last few Sunday evenings, only in reverse this time which actually makes it much tougher run.
Probably because I’ve been relatively out of practice lately and I had no target to hit I always knew it would be a bit stodgy but yet my pace wasn’t awful. Granted, it was slower but not ridiculously slow. I wasn’t really bothered.
I had a brief text conversation with a friend after about a mile to arrange a run for later in the week (yay for lockdown easing!) and then, around the halfway point, I ‘bumped’ into another friend from my running club who was out for a walk and stopped for a bit of a socially distant chat and catch up.
To me this was all much more important than interrupting my run. Pace and time, none of it mattered. Sometimes a run is more than a run.
Playlist: Love Will Tear Us Apart (Joy Division), Smells Like Teen Spirit (Nirvana), Ruby Tuesday (The Rolling Stones), Into My Arms (Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds), Lust For Life (Iggy Pop), Life On Mars (David Bowie), Anarchy In The UK (Sex Pistols), Fight The Power (Public Enemy), Angel (Gavin Friday), Clocks (Coldplay), Nightswimming (R.E.M.), Black Skinhead (Kanye West), When Doves Cry (Prince), Ray Of Light (Madonna), Most Of The Time (Bob Dylan), Safe From Harm (Massive Attack)